had my worst cramp ever. had to trouble baby to get me pink pills during work and just one worked miraclously fine. after work, went to baby's house for dinner. was too spicy and my cramp just made me lost my appetite to eat. before that we went to ntuc and baby bought grapes. i told him to get the seedless one but he prefer those with seed one cause bigger and more juicy. he wanted to get both but its a waste of money so i told him to get the seed one and he shall take the seeds out for me :)

so after the dinner, baby got me orange juice and he ate the grape and sucked the seeds out for me to eat. :) my cramp started again and baby hoax me to sleep. and i started feeling damn emo la. i asked baby to stay with me as long as he can. i really cant imagine him leaving me in this world. there will be no one to make me laugh, sing songs for me, teach me stuff, talk to me abt religious stuff and scold me. :( the pain and the thoughts just made me teared uncontrollably in his chest. baby said he will bring me along with him when he leave and if i leave he will become a monk. hahahaha. silly boy.

im so glad that u told me u love me even though the chinese was there at that time if not i wouldnt be with u and found the better half of my life :)

thank u so much..

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went to rent dvds for ytd [didnt go pet farm :( ]. browsed and browsed and finally picked our three movies to rent then the uncle told us his shop closing down already so 10 for $15. had a hard time choosing those movies, luckily baby was there chose the nice movies.

went home to watch the first movie "the passion", it's about how jesus suffered for the mankind and how he was crucified. was super affected by the movie lah. seeing how he was punished by the romans and nailed to the cross, i teared :((

then the next movie "district13", a nice action movie to relieve my tension from the previous one. after that drove to our all time favourite "daily scoop" to have my favourite ice-cream:honey vanilla!!! but sadly, ytd didn't taste as nice as before cause of the buttery cone. the cone was full of butter taste and made my lips so oily but baby wiped it off for me:).

went to west mall for our dinner.i was craving for sub-way and when we sat down there i can feel that baby was not comfortable with the place. he told me why so many indians there and from the moment, i knew he was mindful of how the other indians looked at him with a chinese girl.

we then left for mos burger. we were quiet all along until i asked him " u dont like to eat with a lot of indians issit" he say ya. " the indians were like looking at me and thinking why must i get a chinese girl" i then told him dont get a chinese girl lor so no body will look at him. he scolded me and asked not to talk to him like this.

i was boiling lah. seriously u were the one that told me u dont care how pple think of u and now u are the one who is so mindful of pple look at us. i dont even give a fuck on how those chinese looked at me when im with you.

we were so silent during the dinner and even on the way back but im staying over at his place ytd so no choice got to break the silence and some more even my personality i dont like to sweep things under the carpet and just let things past. anything that happen must be settled if not the same thing will happen again and we will be mad at each other again.

he told me he just felt irrating at how that particular grp of indians keep peeking over to see us. i told him i actually felt that he was embarrased with me beside him. and asked him wat if one day we really bring our kids over, will he still ask us to change to other restaurant if other indians are looking at us, " they will be the one leaving" he told me. =)) i slept soundly on his arm after tat while he played his peggle.

he woke me up at 6 and went to take away macs for breakfast and so here i am, in the office working till 5.30pm. i need to take photos. more photos with him and my life. going to hweefen's brother wedding tmr. yeah yeah! i love weddings..